next time i do shrooms im watching babyfirst tv. these shows are bright and happy and only last like 5 minutes on each little story or picture show. which is perfect for a happy smiley baby fresh trip.
do you remember the first time you were called annoying?
how your breath stopped short in your chest
the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze
the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue.
your eyes never left the floor that day.
you were 13.
you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,”
apologies littering every other sentence,
words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years.
i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious.
all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard
for 3 minutes
for 10 minutes
for 2 hours
there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, your heart;
mostly because they can’t handle their own.
but you will never be
and have never been
Tyler Ford (via bl-ossomed)
Interior staircase at Palazzo Biscari - mid 18th century - Sicily Italy
8:34 the sky was so beautiful from my rooftop
i hate that i need medication to not feel so unhappy. it doesnt make me happy, it just makes the sadness less prevalent. i hate myself and i feel like i can’t escape. my environment suppresses me.
Holden Arboretum (:
“Young Moses”,19th century.
Tiny ethereal elephant. #fastsketch
what i feel like right now
“A great fire burns within me, but no one stops to warm themselves at it, and passers-by only see a wisp of smoke.”
— Vincent Van Gogh (via mylittlebookofquotes)